My name is Ian. As a kid, I grew up with my grandmother. After I was born, my mum abandoned me and ran away to Thailand. Till today, I have never met my own mother, nor do I know how she looks like. My dad only “re-entered” my life when I was 11 years old.
Growing up, I always felt abandoned and inferior about myself. I would ask myself questions like: “Why are my parents not living together with me or taking care of me? Is it because they don’t love me? Is it because I am not good enough?”
“Why am I so different from others? Why is it that other kids have a complete family and I don’t?” So I would always feel that I was different from the rest of my friends. When it came to Chinese New Year, Birthdays and Christmas, that was when I would feel most alone.
Growing up, I was very independent when it came to my studies and even for income. I worked during school holidays to earn my keep. Whenever I had a need, there’d be no one to turn to. So I told myself to be independent and strong. When my grandmother passed away, it was a huge blow for me because she was someone I confided in and lived life with. I was so afraid that my uncle would sell the house and ask me to leave, and I would have no roof over my head. But thankfully, that didn’t happen. But such was my life, with no sense of stability or security … things we often take for granted.
Last year, in June, my good friend, Brandon, invited me to Camp One – LYL Zone’s youth camp. I really did not know what to expect, but when I saw how happy, loud and friendly the campers were, I was like WOWWW!! I had never attended church before and I was so blown away to see how happy the youths were. Then I heard the sermons and saw the way the campers worshipped Jesus, how many were crying in the presence of God and responding to the altar calls, I was really curious to know more about who this Jesus was.
On the final night of the camp, we had an event called the Feast Coast Party held at East Coast Park. This was a sports outreach, with performances and a barbecue, and we invited many friends. Someone sang a song about God’s love and shared her testimony. I was very moved and gave my heart to Jesus. My pastor and cell group members also prayed for my injured knee.
I started attending cell group meetings and services very regularly. I also attended church mass bible study and was water baptized last August by Pastor Kong! Even in the midst of my polytechnic exams, I still continued coming to church. By God’s grace, I scored a total of 10 distinctions with a GPA of 3.93/4 and received 2 scholarships worth $5500 in my first two years of studies. All glory to God!
Now, instead of relying on my own strength during my times of need, I’ve learned that I can pray and focus on Jesus, trusting Him in every challenge that I face. I’ve learned that all that I have, all that I am, my past, present and future, is all by His grace! I want to take this time to encourage all of you out there who do not know Jesus, to give yourselves a chance to know and experience this amazing Saviour, Jesus Christ! I also want to say thank you to W584 (now known as W607) for standing together with me, thank you to Pastor Yi Lun and Peijin for believing in me. Most of all, thank you Jesus for being with me!