
While
Esther and I were living at St. Peter's Hall at Trinity Theological
College during the first year of our marriage, we both continued
to teach at St. Andrew's and St. Hilda's Schools respectively.
In the afternoons I attended some of the classes which were
offered at the College (part-time during 1964) and then went
into full-time study in 1965 before graduating in December.
I was ordained as a deacon in February 1966 by Bishop C.K.
Sansbury and priested a year later in 1967 by Bishop Chiu
Ban It.
Ironically, in all my years of service in the Diocese I had
never been formally inducted as a Vicar of any parish. This
includes my previous position as Vicar of the Chapel of the
Resurrection which was founded 22 years ago. When I was teaching
at St. Andrew's School, my first parish where I served as
lay reader and on the Parish Church Council was the Ascension
Church (where Esther and I were married on 28 December 1963.)
After we joined St. Peter's Hall, the Vicar of St. Matthew's
Church, the late Canon James Leung requested me to serve (1964-1965)
in the recently formed English congregation of this church.
After my ordination as Deacon I was posted to St. Paul's Church
as a curate to the Ven. Dr. D.D. Chelliah who was also the
Archdeacon. I served 3 years in this wonderful family church.
Jonathan was born while I was in this parish. Esther was still
teaching at St. Hilda's, and so as a young and proud father
I took him around the whole parish of St. Paul's when I did
my pastoral visitations every afternoon and teaching classes
in the evenings. Jonathan was literally immersed in church
life from the time he was born!
At the end of 1967 I was posted to St. Andrew's Cathedral,
serving under the Very Rev. A.C. Dumper who was the Dean of
the Cathedral. I learned much about good preaching, how to
conduct traditional and dignified worship services, and I
also spent much time praying alone at the daily 7am communion
service and evensong at 5.15pm. The number of pastoral staff
at the Cathedral was few then. Besides the Dean and the Chinese-speaking
pastor, there was only myself. And yet the daily offices and
communion were conducted at the Cathedral from Monday to Saturday.
Many times I grumbled about being alone at these public services,
until the Lord revealed to me that whenever we worship Him
in Spirit and in truth, we are never alone. We are always
surrounded by a great cloud of unseen witnesses (see Heb.
12:1) I was greatly blessed during my four years of apprenticeship
at the Cathedral in the early years of my ministry.
In September 1971, I went with my family to Fuller Theological
Seminary in Pasadena, California. I was the first Singapore
student at this world-renowned institution. After I returned
one year later, Bishop Chiu posted me to Queenstown. I became
the first Asian pastor at the English Congregation of the
Church of Good Shepherd (COGS). Prior to that, beginning with
Rev. Chris Ellison, COGS had always been in the care of OMF
missionaries, preserving and protecting this youthful evangelical
congregation from the "contamination" of the other
liberal, Anglo-Catholic influences in the diocese then.
Although I have always been an evangelical Anglican, somehow
until my appointment as priest-in-charge of this congregation,
I never understood why the members refused to participate
in many of the diocesan events. When they heard that I would
be their pastor, there was resistance and many of them were
openly critical. The congregation was inward looking, fairly
small (about 60 members) and not very friendly towards outsiders
who did not reflect their ethos. I knew it was not going to
be easy to manage and grow this congregation which had such
strong feelings ... but God moved in an amazing way. He had
to deal with me first. I needed to be humbled and changed!
While studying at Fuller Seminary in 1972, I was asked to
attend a number of charismatic functions organized by the
Full Gospel Businessman Fellowship (FGBMFI), and healing services
conducted at Melodyland Christian Center and also the Kathryn
Kuhlman meetings at the Shrine Auditorium in Los Angeles.
I was also invited to meet the Anglican charismatic pioneer
in the U.S., the Rev. Dennis Bennett as well as Pastor Chuck
Smith who was a leader of the growing Jesus People movement
at Calvary Chapel.
Although I came into the heartland of the Charismatic Renewal
movement in Southern California, yet I managed to avoid any
contact with these Pentecostal Christians. I was prejudiced
against them and regarded them as shallow, emotional and not
very sound in their bible knowledge. Before coming to Fuller,
I had stopped by in London and spent a week at All Souls'
Church, Langham Place where the Rev. John Stott, the fore-most
evangelical leader was the Rector. John had counseled me not
to be involved with the charismatic renewal. At that time
I had very little knowledge about its threat to the evangelicals.
I accepted his advice and so throughout the whole period in
California I never attended any charismatic meeting.
I was glad that there was no direct personal contact made
with the Pentecostals at a human level. Upon my return to
Singapore in Sept 1972, over the next 3 months, I became inwardly
fearful and spiritually unsettled. There was a sense of dissatisfaction
and inadequacy in my spirit. I was restless and I felt that
something important was missing in my own life. I did not
know anyone I could turn to for counseling. My bishop then
held a very different theological viewpoint from myself.
I still remember his rebuke of me when I shared about my personal
experience of salvation and the need for repentance and deliverance
when he asked us at the weekly Tuesday clergy meeting of what
we think of "Salvation Today." It was the theme
of a World Council of Churches conference which was to be
held in Bangkok in December 1972. He told me that no one could
be sure of one's own salvation. I was greatly upset with the
rebuke and was discouraged at first. If God did not intervene
in my life as well as in Bishop Chiu's life sovereignly at
that time, I would have left the Anglican Church then.
I was so desperate for God to reveal Himself to me in a fresh
personal way. At the beginning of 1973, I cried out to the
Lord in prayer, that if God had something real and new for
me I would be ready to receive. I was hungry for God. One
night as I prayed I sensed that God was going to do something
to answer my cry and the longing of my heart. After praying
for a while I became still for a moment. Then I felt my tongue
begin to move and as I vocalized it I found myself speaking
in an unknown tongue. Up till now I had no contact with Pentecostal
Christians and so speaking in tongues was entirely a new and
unfamiliar experience for me. I concluded that it was God
who gave me this experience and that Jesus Christ Himself
had baptized me with the Holy Spirit. I did not seek for this
gift of tongues but God was gracious in giving me this faith-building
experience. I discovered that mine was not an isolated event.
A few days later, Bishop Chiu had just returned from the WCC
Conference. He shared with me about his experience and encounter
with the Holy Spirit while he was in Bangkok. He too had been
touched by the Lord at about the same time as I was in Singapore!
As soon as I learned of his experience, I was thrilled and
rejoiced in the amazing grace of God. We became knitted in
one spirit. Very soon after that, the fire of the charismatic
renewal which was ignited at the Church of the Good Shepherd
and St. Andrew's Cathedral, began to spread in the Diocese
as well as to the other churches throughout Singapore from
1973 onwards.
In March of that year, I was introduced to Brian Bailey, originally
from England and now living in the United States. After his
ministry in the Philippines he was prompted by the Holy Spirit
to come to Singapore. Mr. Goh Ewe Kheng, an elder of the Church
of Singapore brought Brian Bailey to meet me and he told me
of what God was doing through the charismatic renewal all
over the world. I invited Brian to speak to our young congregation
at Good Shepherd and he taught us this song with a prophetic
message: "All over the world the Spirit is moving ...
And all over the Church the Spirit is moving ..." I asked
Brian Bailey how would I know this would happen in Singapore
and in Good Shepherd Church. He then told me that God had
revealed to him that there will be a mighty out-pouring of
His Spirit upon the Church in Singapore and we will see a
revival soon.